I Tried

You stole my heart,
then tore it in two.
Now I'm falling apart,
and don't know what to do.

Divided by decisions,
burned by the fire.
Confused by your words.
Tempted by desire.

I'm living in the present.
My mind is on the past.
Not knowing what I'll lose.
Not knowing what will last.

Blinded by fear.
Drowning in doubt.
Struggling to be free.
Looking for a way out.

Tears Of A Broken Heart

I have given my love to you, but what do I get in return?
A broken heart.
I have given you my heart, and you stomp on it like a doormat.
I have given you my youth and you took advantage of my un-experienced heart and played with my emotions.
I gave you the trust, but you misused it.
I gave you the benefit of the doubt, and you proved everyone right.
I gave you my time and you killed me day by day.
I want to pull my aching heart and tear it piece by piece, So I no longer love you.
I want to loose my memory so I no longer think of you.
I want to go so far so I no longer have to see you.
I want to cry but I no longer have any more tears to fall down
my sad lonely face.
I want to sleep but my dreams haunt me with you in them.
I can't seem to find a way out. What do I do?
I don't want anyone to see this not even you.
How do I get out of this?
How do I stop this misery? How to solve this mystery?
I can't seem to find anyone to make feel the way you do,
The way you look at me,
the way you say my name,
the sound of your voice when you tell me that you care.
I love you so much I think I'm going to die from this pain that haunts day and night.
How can forget you?
How can I move on?
I want to break free and move on but I think I'll be doing something wrong.
I just have to close my eyes and let things fly and let the days pass me by.

I cant

I realized that no matter how bad it hurts or how bad I feel, it’s time to stop thinking about that person who played with my feelings, who took my love for granted, who never appreciated my care, who wasn't contented with what I could give him . I can’t stay at that hurtful place anymore. I can’t keep shedding tears over someone who doesn't deserve the love I gave. I can’t keep feeling sorry for myself and thinking if only I did more. I can’t make him want the relationship because if he wanted he wouldn't have let me go.

I will soon get over that pain I'm having right now and one day I'll be happy again.
I miss you Derick ,, sigh.. but you are not worthy to be missed. :(